back to POW MOW this week.
soooo strange to be back. still havent made up my mind 100% if i want to return.
vail still calls me....and i miss the atmosphere, and friends i made, there. and Northwoods.

the halloween store though....is turning into a damn funny job. today my job was to construct a "cubby" to hide all the extra masks, behind the sales counter. so in my head i heard...."go sort through the boxes, find bad ones, make a castle while youre over there, come back and build a storage space here." so needless to say the castle has started.

then there are the : take-as-much-time-as-you need lunchbreaks, the rubberband fights, the sword fights, the costume fashion shows, dressing/posing the mannequins in naughty ways.

i enjoy it.
so now its back to a week at powder. i think this will decide if i return for winter or not.

lost

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soo...she was suppose to move all her stuff out over the weekend. and thats why i ASKED to work both days. i still came home to find her stuff untouched. monday though, she moved the majority of it out. still leaving her bed. why drag this out?

but at the same time...i'm lost....i wasnt ready for this after all.

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IMGP2602, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

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IMGP2568, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

share the love

share the love, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

snowbum

snowbum, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

in my yoga/zen books it suggests, that when breathing, to block out thoughts and focus on one word, one picture. i have always pictured this statue. i remember sitting on the bus, going to work in vail, every morning, listening to sigur ros and breathing.

i still do it today. makes me smile.

Warped Highlights:

Frrreeeee Tickets!
Hooking up a stranger with a free ticket
Meeting a monk.....talking without talking
The Questions: Are you playing here?...You wanna hit this?....Where did you get your shoes?
Brokencyde...soo wrong...but oh so funny.
The entire NOFX set
Seeing Powder People
Being told...."Minneeesooota Niiiiceee"
The fact I could wear a beanie all day, and not be sweating my bawls off
Whoever the girl was that decided to dance up on me at Brokencyde....ugh



i woke up sunday morning to scratching at my door. and i whispered to myself, "no 'f-ing way".....but then i heard it again. and zoom....i was at the door. but nobody was there. where are you? you torture me still. yeah i do it to myself, but youre still here. i still see you. how much longer can i do this? i want you back. deal with it. and i wont give up. and i may just have to walk away.

Day after...the healing begins

Day after...the healing begins, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

washed and yeah it looks a little sketchy....but I DID IT

Self Ink !

Self Ink !, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

The night of.

First tattoo on myself.....I plan for more. Wayyy rad to actually tattoo yourself.

Warped Tour weekend!

....wahooooo

.Stories to follow.

Robyn said to me...."you're mumbling again.....and are you mumbling in Spanish?!"
hehehehe...funniest thing i heard all day.

and they gave me a new nickname at work: Crafty



Ugh....i woke up gasping for breath the other night, due to my dream. "youre dickhead friend" was riding the school bus with me super late at night. and i had my laundry there, and was hanging it up over all the seats. he just glared at me the entire time. and i got off at my stop, the farm in minnesota, and he decided to get off as well. then proceeded to chase me. thats when i woke up...a little freaked out.

everynight youre involved in my dreams, somehow.
when are you going to ever see me, notice me.
i think i'm almost ready to let go......=(

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IMGP2533, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

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IMGP2542, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

in just 5 seconds of seeing her, this is what happens. is this normal?

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IMGP2530, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.