big pun

I'm not a player

I just crush alot

this is the theme song to this trip

the motto as of last night:

"this is a co-getsome mission"

there are no rules in this state.

girls.

snowboarding.

music.

who knows whats in store for the next few days.

minnesota returns

Always intrigued by airports.

All the people. All the stories.

Surely, its not creepy to listen in on conversations.

It is

and dont call me surely.

Ivy

Makes sense. What do you want to do with your life?

11:07pmMe

travel

smile

find "her"

Ivy

Well, I've gotten you to smile, have I not?

Me

um yeah....

but

i want to smile on my own

"Why are you so nice Veg?"

.......why indeed?

The Office - Chair Model - Video - NBC.com

http://www.nbc.com/The_Office/video/chair-model/241427/

note to self: one republic...secrets

Kele - Everything You Wanted

nomad

This nomad lifestyle is becoming very appealing to this kid.

Step one: purchase RV

Step two: purchase atlas

Step three: ?

Step four: Live. Smile.

i miss you.

How To Be Alone

If you rescue me

I’ll be your friend forever

Let me in your bed

I’ll keep you warm in winter

All the kittens are playing

they’re having such fun

I wish it could happen to me

But if you rescue me

I’ll never have to be alone again

All the cars drive do fast

And the people are mean

And sometimes it’s hard to find food

Let me into your world

I’ll keep you warm and amused

All the things we can do in the rain

If you rescue me

I’ll be your friend forever

Let me in your bed

I’ll keep you warm in winter

Oh someday I know

Someone will look into my eyes

And say: hello, you’re a very special kitten

So if you rescue me

I’ll never have to be alone again

I’ll never have to be alone again

I’ll never have to be alone again

broke

Bird Lady: That broke my heart. When the chance to be loved came along again, I ran away from it. I stopped trusting people.
Kevin McCallister: No offense, but that seems like sort of a dumb thing to do.
Bird Lady: I was afraid of getting my heart broken again. Sometimes you can trust a person, and then, when things are down, they forget about you.
Kevin McCallister: Maybe they're just too busy. Maybe they don't forget about you, but they forget to remember you. People don't mean to forget. My grandfather says if my head wasn't screwed on, I'd leave it on the school bus.
Bird Lady: I'm just afraid if I do trust someone, I'll get my heart broken.
Kevin McCallister: I understand. I had a nice pair of Rollerblades. I was afraid to wreck them, so I kept them in a box. Do you know what happened? I outgrew them. I never wore them outside. Only in my room a few times.
Bird Lady: A person's heart and feelings are very different than skates.
Kevin McCallister: They're kind of the same thing. If you won't use your heart, who cares if it gets broken? If you just keep it to yourself, maybe it'll be like my Rollerblades. When you do decide to try it, it won't be any good. You should take a chance. Got nothing to lose.
Bird Lady: Little truth in there somewhere.
Kevin McCallister: I think so. Your heart might still be broken, but it isn't gone. If it was gone, you wouldn't be so nice.
Bird Lady: Thank you. Do you know it's been a couple of years since I've talked to anybody?
Kevin McCallister: That's okay. You're good at it. You're not boring. You don't mumble or spit. You should do it more often. Just wear an outfit with no pigeon poop on it.
Bird Lady: I have been working very hard at keeping people away. I always think I'll have a lot of fun if I'm alone... but when I'm alone, it's not fun.
Kevin McCallister: I don't care how much people bug me, I'd rather be with someone than alone.
Bird Lady: So what are you doing alone on Christmas Eve? You did something wrong?
Kevin McCallister: A lot of things.
Bird Lady: Did you know that a good deed erases a bad deed?
Kevin McCallister: It's late. I don't know if I'll have enough time to do enough good deeds to erase all my bad ones.
Bird Lady: It's Christmas Eve. Good deeds count extra tonight. Think of an important thing you can do for others, and go do it. Just follow the star in your heart.
Kevin McCallister: Okay... It's getting pretty late. I'd better get going. If I don't see you, I hope everything turns out okay.
Bird Lady: Thank you.
Kevin McCallister: Tell the birds I said goodbye.

Bird Lady: I will.
Kevin McCallister: If you need somebody to trust, it can be me. I won't forget to remember you.
Bird Lady: Don't make promises you can't keep.

who would have thought Home Alone 2 could be so "deep"

a broken heart for a birthday present

i'd rather not have opened that gift

as fast as you showed up

you disappeared

i fell for you

i got scared by you

i pushed you

i regretted me

and out of nowhere

you show up

in no time

i've fallen for you

complicating situations

sing to me again

everytime

EVERYTIME i see pictures or videos of alaska i get tears in my eyes.

literally tears.

i think i'm suppose to go there.

oh you.

who are you?

No time ever seems right
To talk about the reasons why you and I fight
It's high time to draw the line
Put an end to this game before it's too late
Head games, it's you and me baby
Head games, and I can't take it anymore
Head games, I don't wanna play the...
Head games
I daydream for hours it seems
I keep thinkin' of you, yeah, thinkin' of you
These daydreams, what do they mean?
They keep haunting me, are they warning me?
Daylight turns into night
We try and find the answer but it's nowhere in sight
It's always the same and you know who's to blame
You know what I'm sayin', still we keep on playin'
Head games, that's all I get from you
Head games, and I can't take it anymore
Head games, don't wanna play the...
Head games
So near, so far away
We pass each other by 'cause we don't know what to say
It's so clear, I'm sorry to say
But if you wanna win you gotta learn how to play
Head games, always you and me, baby
Head games, 'till I can't take it anymore
Head games, instead of makin' love
Head games, ooh
Head games, always you and me, baby
Head games, 'till I can't take it anymore, no more
Head games, instead of makin' love, we play
Head game
Yep. I just quoted Foreigner.

ohhhh why did we meet?

...i hate it when people find out the real name.

get the same responses : "my sister is named cheyenne." or "my dogs name is cheyenne"

.....yay.

again

Hello Booootique

Let the drama begin.

messy

it was a first time this morning

i'd never woken up from a dream/nightmare

being so angry and having my fists clenched and tensed

its bothering me

its exhausting.

just drown the memories

hello old friend.

nice to see you again.

Charlotte Sometimes - How I Could Just Kill A Man

woe

please take me out of my body
up through the palm trees
to smell california in sweet hypocrisy
float in my senses, surround my body
i wake my nose to smell that ocean burn
so now i'm forging ahead
past all the plutocrats
who sold me out
go sob in your bed
if life is twice as pretty
once you're dead
then send me a card
i'm still the optimist, though it is hard
when all you want to be is in a dream

road

I have this fantasy of disappearing

draining the bank account

packing up the subaru

and just leaving

i think of this journey often....daily

and more recently

almost hourly

i dream of alaska

i dream of one day being happy

i dream of those memorable moments

it feels i'm at a crossroads

not toooo sure which direction to go

this anger and sadness is eating away at my insides

i'd like to not wake up in tears

i'd also not like to wake up alone

Darren Hanlon - I Wish That I Was Beautiful For You

i wish that i was good enough for you

!!

Hot in herrre

get some

adorable

no explanation really.

seriously, can we talk about this?

i gots shit to show you nigga'

on a sunday afternoon

how do normal people spend a sunny, 80 degree weather, sunday afternoon.

most likely golfing, hiking, biking, fishing or boating.

how do i spend a day as such?

i hike up sundown and play in the snow.

i feel so very used....like i was just a notch in her belt.

ugh

I got an idea: You should get a tattoo that says warning
That's all, just a warning, so the potential victim can take a left
And save breath, and avoid you, sober and upset in the morning
I wanna scream, "Fuck you Lucy!"
But the problem is I love you Lucy
So instead I'm a finish my drink and have another

i like how instead of making a packing list or organizing travel plans, etc........i make one thing priority:

plan out/ration out the ice cream til you leave

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh...
You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There is thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?

woot woot

vegomatic

straight off the mountain to the tattoo parlour

Adorable Cooch

yupdates

April '10 First Hike of the year....Mr.Universe

drying the laundry....whilst it snowing

come back in 213 days and then you can watch this film

how random was that.

i wanted to start putting myself out there and meeting new people.

so i found an eco-friendly "green" event that needed volunteers.

within 20 minutes i was registered and on the list.

wanting to get more familiar with SLC i'm making more and more frequent trips to explore and find/meet new people/places. and somehow i knew that morning before i left, i'd see you.

when Mary told me i'd be working with Aubrie(at the gate).....i knew instantly. and there you were, riding up on your bike. at "my" gate. it was nice to see you again. it so happens that i continued seeing you later that night in my dreams, back at the event. weird.

i'm liking SLC more and more as i visit. after todays interview, and another trip tomorrow for another interview, i just may be invading the city.

last nights dream had me up at pow-mow. volunteering, serving food. i made a point of saying "i'm not getting paid for this!" rawr. i miss the snow.

Hello Slug magazine.

blah

someone just exclaimed:

"you're still waiting for her!...its been a month"

well its been over two months.

i think i care too much. or i always hold out....hoping.

just to get a kick in the face.

blahhh

annnnd Gaga just came on. i cant think of the last time i actually sprinted to the tv.

ugh.

i went to sleep so sad.

and then i was snowboarding.

just at sundown, but i hiked up. no one around. deep snow. then all of a sudden appeared other people hiking up. i dropped in, effortlessly carving. spinning off everything and anything. spinning off that stepup jump, landing on my bum and laughing so hard. and then just getting up and riding away unphased.

i'm happy in my dreams.

You're headed for self destruction

been there.....did that
kick back with the wrong angel to fuck with
Carve my charm into your arms
Fuck around, unravel this tall ball of yarn