back to POW MOW this week.
soooo strange to be back. still havent made up my mind 100% if i want to return.
vail still calls me....and i miss the atmosphere, and friends i made, there. and Northwoods.

the halloween store though....is turning into a damn funny job. today my job was to construct a "cubby" to hide all the extra masks, behind the sales counter. so in my head i heard...."go sort through the boxes, find bad ones, make a castle while youre over there, come back and build a storage space here." so needless to say the castle has started.

then there are the : take-as-much-time-as-you need lunchbreaks, the rubberband fights, the sword fights, the costume fashion shows, dressing/posing the mannequins in naughty ways.

i enjoy it.
so now its back to a week at powder. i think this will decide if i return for winter or not.

lost

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soo...she was suppose to move all her stuff out over the weekend. and thats why i ASKED to work both days. i still came home to find her stuff untouched. monday though, she moved the majority of it out. still leaving her bed. why drag this out?

but at the same time...i'm lost....i wasnt ready for this after all.

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share the love

share the love, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

snowbum

snowbum, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

in my yoga/zen books it suggests, that when breathing, to block out thoughts and focus on one word, one picture. i have always pictured this statue. i remember sitting on the bus, going to work in vail, every morning, listening to sigur ros and breathing.

i still do it today. makes me smile.

Warped Highlights:

Frrreeeee Tickets!
Hooking up a stranger with a free ticket
Meeting a monk.....talking without talking
The Questions: Are you playing here?...You wanna hit this?....Where did you get your shoes?
Brokencyde...soo wrong...but oh so funny.
The entire NOFX set
Seeing Powder People
Being told...."Minneeesooota Niiiiceee"
The fact I could wear a beanie all day, and not be sweating my bawls off
Whoever the girl was that decided to dance up on me at Brokencyde....ugh



i woke up sunday morning to scratching at my door. and i whispered to myself, "no 'f-ing way".....but then i heard it again. and zoom....i was at the door. but nobody was there. where are you? you torture me still. yeah i do it to myself, but youre still here. i still see you. how much longer can i do this? i want you back. deal with it. and i wont give up. and i may just have to walk away.

Day after...the healing begins

Day after...the healing begins, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

washed and yeah it looks a little sketchy....but I DID IT

Self Ink !

Self Ink !, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

The night of.

First tattoo on myself.....I plan for more. Wayyy rad to actually tattoo yourself.

Warped Tour weekend!

....wahooooo

.Stories to follow.

Robyn said to me...."you're mumbling again.....and are you mumbling in Spanish?!"
hehehehe...funniest thing i heard all day.

and they gave me a new nickname at work: Crafty



Ugh....i woke up gasping for breath the other night, due to my dream. "youre dickhead friend" was riding the school bus with me super late at night. and i had my laundry there, and was hanging it up over all the seats. he just glared at me the entire time. and i got off at my stop, the farm in minnesota, and he decided to get off as well. then proceeded to chase me. thats when i woke up...a little freaked out.

everynight youre involved in my dreams, somehow.
when are you going to ever see me, notice me.
i think i'm almost ready to let go......=(

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in just 5 seconds of seeing her, this is what happens. is this normal?

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ugh...
i'm sick of feeling like this
i'm sick of looking at your stuff, its taking up the entire boardroom
move it out
i'm not a fuckin' storage unit
i'm only going to be nice for a little longer

you just dont get it.....

she didnt come down.
how old are you?
awesome.
thanks

waynes world on repeat

i see her for the first time today....

and this is all that is repeating in my head....from waynes world. does the boy ever get the girl back in real life? i hope so. i used nice smelling conditioner in my hair today, found a nice blue shirt, and even splashed on some cologne....ugh.

(even cut my nose hairs....blahhh....)

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i was in Michaels and saw this poster thing.
and it reminded me of the tattoo

it has the psalms 124 :7 verse on it

so i vote for the Faith tattoo

the sleeve tattoo is now in the serious design phase

watch out...

dinner

dinner, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

delicious




give me a break....

dinner

dinner, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

i couldnt stop laughing....
as i made a pizza(from scratch) using string cheese

sooo sad

so i wanted to learn a new song(to play drums on)
and who do i pick....

Lady Gaga
"Pokerface"

double bass and all

i wonder what kind of faces i make

i hate waking up without you by my side
my heart hasnt figured it out yet nor has my mind i hate this divorce tooo much tooo soon
i get that so take a step back and take my hand its there for you i want to hold your hand
i want to feel your breath on my neck i lay there wishing you would just hear me to just look at your eyes
you just walked away why? come over secretly i leave the door open everynight just in case you come scratching
you are not just another girl you are the girl deal with it
this will take me a long time there is so much yet to see
i remember it vividly love i've been walking erect since the moment we met

if you rescue me

i'll be your friend forever

let me in your bed

i'll keep you warm in winter

all the kittens are playing

and they're having such fun

i wish it could happen to me

but if you rescue me

i'll be your friend forever

Halloween Hookup

so i start Saturday.
building a "store" from the floor up
who cares if i am paid a crap wage
i have a fun job instead of a lame office job

"they" say to not wear costumes while we work
*F* that....
let the imagination run wild

Sucker love is heaven sent.

You pucker up, our passion's spent.

My hearts a tart, your body's rent.

My body's broken, yours is bent.

Carve your name into my arm.

Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.

Cuz there's nothing else to do

Every me and every you.

Your result for The Lover Style Profile Test...

The Surprising Lover

59% partner focus, 24% aggressiveness, 70% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather be pursued than do the pursuing and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Surprising Lover.

The Surprising Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and, like the name implies, is often filled with hidden delights and talents that might not be apparent from a surface knowledge of the person. The Surprising Lover is rather like a geode--sometimes rough on the exterior, but filled with beauty and wonder. The Surprising Lover is thus a gem to find, though it can sometimes be difficult to do so because they often tend to be humble and unwilling to reveal their inner greatness unless they're in a rewarding relationship.

In terms of physical love, the Surprising Lover really shines, often highly imaginative and utterly devoted to bringing the heights of pleasure to the one that they truly love. Given a rewarding, reciprocative relationship, and the right lover, the Surprising Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Carnal Lover (most of all) or the Exotic Lover, or the Suave Lover.

Congratulations!

what you seek is right in front of you stop being stubborn