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so she tells me i cross my arms alot. i say "its just a natural position"..... but i wonder if thats such a good thing.

"This can indicate that a person is putting up an unconscious barrier between themselves and others. It can also indicate that the person's arms are cold which would be clarified by rubbing the arms or huddling. When the overall situation is amicable, it can mean that a person is thinking deeply about what is being discussed. "

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IMGP2650, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

highlight

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IMGP2675, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

called me on the phone and you touched yourself. i laughed myself to sleep.

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IMGP2659, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

the scars.........the memories

Ipod vending machines

Really? Where am I?...when did this idea start?
How did I end up back in MN?....
...i dont see this as being a "happy" trip.
speaking of a happy trip...I'd like to purchase more mushrooms. Possibly to do them in Vegas. Whoa.
New Ink

photos on the way soon.

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IMGP2631, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

i left earth

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IMGP2635, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

mushrooms...writing

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IMGP2636, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

my night on mushrooms....writing with my eyes closed

in the bathroom...

in the bathroom..., originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

Apparently there are photos/video of me dancing on the piano at the bar.....i would like to see these

sureeee

sureeee, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

happy birthday

happy birthday, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

happy birthday veg

happy birthday veg, originally uploaded by lobster_editor.

twenty seven efff'in years old today.
how i manage to last this long....i dont know.
why i'm still here....i dont know.
i was hoping to not wake up today.... like everyother day.

she texted me a lot yesterday...ugh. luckily i didnt tear into her much like i wanted to. Kris stopped me and said, dont reply. its what she wants. its just another game she is playing with you. i'm glad i listened to her. (thanks)
she called me a penpal...."a bad penpal"....really?...all i am is a fucking penpal to you. awesome.
this whole "me being too nice" thing wont last much longer. get your stuff out.
give me my money back. and my green shirt.
thanks.
thanks for the scars.


i've made an appointment to get a professional scar of sorts. i hope its colourful.

i thought this was suppose to get easier with time. its not.

i'm debating whether to start drinking at midnight tonight, pop the pills, and hopefully never wake up again. i'm ready to go.

thanks for the scars

Highlights/lowlights from the weekend:

-i dont know how many times i was asked this past week, up at POW MOW, "so did you get married?"...ugh....
-i gave my number to a girl....but she hasnt called =(
-a random lady walked up to me and said "Veg?!?....we were just talking about you. So this is you. Glad to meet you. I hear youre cool.....cool as a cucumber." Is that a good thing?
-"you look/seem like the most laidback cook i've ever seen"
-Working 7am-8pm
-getting the cash Bonu$
-interview with Outside Magazine
-the bet has been made to see how long i can go, without shaving my face. will a beard happen?


...ugh. why cant she get the rest of her stuff out?...why is she dragging this out?...making it harder than it already is?