decade

Ten(10!) years of this lifestyle.

And no plans to quit anytime soon.

For the first time, little responsibility this season

meaning more time on the snow

No easy road though.

I want to work for it.

Meaning more hiking.

MORE creativity.

MORE shoveling.

MORE appreciation.

and then sadness sets in again.

and its difficult to leave this room.

"I just don't want to look back and wonder what could have been, you know?"

and yet everyday I wonder "what if"

the easiest way to lose something

is to want it too badly

" I guess, in the end, things seldom work out exactly the way you expect. Other times, well, you've kind of sealed your own fate. Either way, you have to trust that whatever's supposed to happen, will happen. Besides, somehow you always seem to end up with the person you're meant to be with."

wallow

"One of the most universal human experiences is feeling alone.

You'd never know it, but there's most likely tons of people feeling the exact same way.

Maybe because you're feeling abandoned.

Maybe because you realize that you aren't as self-sufficient as you thought.

Maybe because you know you should've handled something differently.

Or maybe because you aren't as good as you thought you were.

Either way, when you hit that low point, you have a choice.

You can either wallow in self-pity....

...Or you can suck it up. It's your call."

next

and in a flash its all over

it may be just a 3 month store

but its packed full of stories. full of drama.

now those memories are packed into a storage unit.

both physically and mentally

never turned to booze so much to calm down after a shift.

or during.

so painful. heartbroken. stressed. tears.

yet slight moments of delight

even bliss

theres so much i want to tell you.

but never will