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someone just exclaimed:

"you're still waiting for her!...its been a month"

well its been over two months.

i think i care too much. or i always hold out....hoping.

just to get a kick in the face.

blahhh

annnnd Gaga just came on. i cant think of the last time i actually sprinted to the tv.

ugh.

i went to sleep so sad.

and then i was snowboarding.

just at sundown, but i hiked up. no one around. deep snow. then all of a sudden appeared other people hiking up. i dropped in, effortlessly carving. spinning off everything and anything. spinning off that stepup jump, landing on my bum and laughing so hard. and then just getting up and riding away unphased.

i'm happy in my dreams.